Ten months later

For most people, ten months seems like a lifetime. Right now, it’s ten months until September, and there are so many things to look forward to between now and then that we can’t help but think of it as a long time away.

For me, the last ten months have been the complete opposite.

I have never been a person to reflect on the passing of time, but I woke up this morning, saw the date on the screen of my phone and couldn’t help but reflect on how quickly the last ten months has gone.

Ten months ago from this very moment, I was waking up from life saving brain surgery. So much has changed for me since that moment, and I’m definitely a different person, but I’ve been thinking about just why I feel like this year has flown by in comparison to all of my previous years.

Perhaps it’s because I spent the first few weeks of the year in and out of consciousness and having so many hallucinations that I don’t really remember January at all, but I think there’s more to it than that. I think it’s because how much I have to do to feel a sense of achievement has changed. This time eighteen months ago, I wouldn’t have considered it a challenge to simply get to my own front door. Now, I feel a huge sense of achievement on the days where I feel like I have enough energy at the end of the day to climb the stairs to my second floor flat instead of using the lift.

Changing the levels at which I feel I’ve had an achievement means that I now notice the smaller things. Having one of those simple achievements on a more regular basis takes away the element of having to wait for the next big life event and time passes far more quickly.

In ten months from now, I’m hoping I’ll have run a marathon and reached my fundraising goal, but they’re far larger achievements than the ones I’m focussing on in the mean time. I’m going to continue to take life day by day, achievement by achievement  and run by run and my bigger goals will hopefully fall in to place.

You can help me with those bigger goals. I’d love it if you could share this post on your social media pages, or make a donation to my cause.

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